To the Very Committed People

Trigger Warning: Contains references to depression and suicide. To the very committed people who have loved me quietly despite my ups and downs and darknesses and distances, thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you for being there, when I know it would have been easier not to be. Thank you for letting me fall […]

Coroner’s Report: Poem for Tom Sloane

The pessimistic parts of me All thought we were heading For an autopsy You and I In your clinically white bedroom Identifying the cause of death Sharp and sterile And dispassionate Both of us knowing full well What we will find Weighing on the chest cavity, Blocking the throat Heart murmurs but low pressure Slow […]

La méfiante s’ explique: An Inventory of Doubt

Let’s take stock of the situation. I have spent the day in not-inconsiderable physical pain. I spent the morning asleep and the evening in emotional distress. Yesterday was the same. When I say distress I’m talking hardcore distress. I mean debilitating inertia: zero motivation to move. I mean giving up halfway across my apartment and […]